안 그런 척

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                  

                                                                한때는

                                                                나만의 공간에

                                                                누군가 들어오는 것이 참 싫었다.

 

                                                                 그것이

                                                                 마음의 방이든..

                                                                 현실의 방이든..

 

 

                                                                 그래서

                                                                 꼭꼭 닫아 채우고 살아온 날들도 있었지만

 

                                                                 그 지독한 외롬이

                                                                 그렇게 지독해서

                                                                 빗장을 걷고 뛰쳐 나왔지만

                                                 

 

                                                                 나는 어느새

                                                                 이방인처럼

                                                                 낯선 타인처럼

 

                                                                 세상 속의 부유물처럼 떠돌고 있었다.

                                                                 세상 속에 발을 딛고

                                                                 세상 속 사람들과

 

                                                                 조금이라도 어우러지는 일이

                                                                 내겐

                                                                 무슨 고행처럼 어렵고도 힘들었다.

 

 

 

                                                                 아직도 힘들다.

 

                                                                 다만

 

                                                                 안그런 척 할 뿐..

 

 

 

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